Kirk

Nostalgia: a sentimental longing for the past. Nostalgia has been lasting me five days. Every time I lift my head from the pillow and realize that it's morning, I remember a day that should no longer be sentimental to me. It was a day five days ago. It's not so much the person I had been longing to meet, but it was the first person I was able to have a genuine conversation with. For days I had seen him come to do his work, and he was just a fixture for a moment. The days he was an absentee had me thinking about becoming a reckless fool again. I wanted to do something bold, put my reputation at risk. But Thursday was in my favor. I did not see it coming; my heart contracted, my skin crawled, and my intentions were ready. I was flattered in the sense that he spoke to me. It came as intriguing to me how he did not see me as the rest of those who worked with me. Something told him I had rebelled before, and I would do it again. But he did not give me enough to make me think that I was appealing to him. All the same, it's not so much the person, but the way he made me feel. After five long months, he was the first I conversed with, and it saddened me that I never got to see him again. So nostalgia, is now on my bad side. Everything i look at, think of, is because of him. Thanks a lot, air conditioner handy-man.

The Antiquated Novelties

For a moment, I was spiraling down with a black-and-white dizzying background, twirling behind me. It really wasn't 'just' a moment, it was five months ago. Well, for one, Ramadan is about to go like leaves can be easily blown away. 1. Fasting in the south should have been at least twice is difficult as it would be up north. We have almost reached the end of it, and it is by far the best Ramadan ever. 2.I've been in circles about starting college, but finally convinced myself that if I don't get into Emory or Vanderbilt, then at least I am still studying surgical technology. 3. Majoring in surgical technology... 4. Retaking the SAT's (as well as three SAT Subject Tests) 5. Rekindled friendships and relationships. Unfortunately, heard some bad news about some families and have cried a bit about it. Some of my friends I've decided to keep in touch are people I had a fall out, and we both accepted the fact that we have to agree to disagree on MANY things. The sad thing is that I've known them for ten years, and whatever that has come between us has pulled us this far apart from each other. 6. Chopping grass, which isn't fun. (note: do not buy a house with a front garden) 7. My mother got a new job at Muslim Academy of Greater Orlando. Yes, the REGISTRAR. I am scared for her because she's doing 5 jobs instead of one. But... 8. I'm the Registrar Assistant! At least until I start the semester this August. I've been doing phone calls and filing paperwork in return for a 50 dollar bill. I could say more, but it is sufficient to say that I will be rewriting another blog to say how I feel lately as opposed to what I've been doing. OH! And I am so intrigued by this Justin James Hughes guy on Youtube! Okay, he is handsome. But he's ingeniously funny and his laugh is CONTAGIOUS!! Make sure to check him out.

Jackson's Tropical Hurricane

Did any of ya'll watch Monsieur Sarkozy lose the French election on May 5th? Probably the most enticing thing that's happened in my life so far. I can't believe that Francois Hollande just swept the election under Sarkozy's feet and won like it was just a double-dutch game! I liked it. It was fun. Ten years and I've waited to enter Paris without having to worry about croissant and bad coffee being thrown at me. It's not me I feel bad about, it's the croissant. But! Poor Carla Bruni. Her, I liked a lot. May 5th also happened to be my brother's birthday. I don't think I need to say how happy I was to not be around him in Florida during that month. He treated himself to Polo t-shirts and Calvin Klein suits. But it wasn't fun being in Saudi either (many things I'll stop myself from listing). Can I say how glad I am tobe back in the South, especially during rain season? I love the humid air, gloomy skies, empty grass ranches by the lakes. Our new home is like "Splendor in the grass". I can imagine so many new experiences happening here. I'm actually getting back into shape because of the great scenery. Very, very exciting. Over the past few weeks, a lot of things have started to grow onto me. James Dean to be one. He's so...C O O L. It's just a shame that there are only a few movies he will ever be great for. He's so stunning that I've been watching "Rebel Without a Cause" nonstop since my trip to the Middle East.

When I get sad, I think George Peppard. Because he makes me happy again. There is no blonde blue-eyed charming true American like George Peppard. He's the pipin' A-Team guy. Well, his film "The Carpetbaggers" has me dazed.

My father and I like to plop ourselves on the couch ever Monday night and watch WWE Raw. There was nothing greater than John Cena fight The Rock. And then in Over The Limit, there was John Cena vs. John Lauranitis, and it made television history. Well, on June 6th, we'll be watching John Cena face The Big Show in "No Way Out" in a friggin' steel cage, and my heart will be raaaaacing outta this world!!!

The life after: Cegep!

I forgot just how much I miss my blogging! It's been more than 6 months since I've posted my last words here. During those 6 months, I was in Montreal trying to fit myself back into my hometown. I was happy for a while, but a lot of that happiness turned into stress and frustration when I started attending Dawson College. Ah! So much I can say about that school. It was an amazing experience, but I knew Dawson wasn't for me. Students are very alike (texting, partying and all) but I met some very wonderful people whom I actually miss very much these days. I got to know that people are so much more open-minded than I think. I found out that I am a person who stresses a lot and cannot manage my time. But I know that I can go to medical school if I try harder and reset my priorities. Today, I do miss Cegep and Montreal, but it's not the place for me.

A lot of moving around has taken place. Moving to the south is probably the best thing that has happened to me. Florida is such a sweetheart state, the people are amazing and so gracious. I will be starting college over the fall after a lot of thinking. I will be taking the SATs (something I know I won't do so well at!). I know my head is not in the game, I just feel like it will take a lot of time for me to unwind from the Cegep stress. I have reconnected with some very good friends and have found my happy place. I was never a cyber fannatic (I'm planning on deleting my fb account very soon), but for some reason blogging makes me feel out of this world!

Over the week to come, I will be posting a project I have been working on for a long long time (I'm so shy to expose it!), reviewing products, writing about my new school, sharing stunning photos of my role models, and any social life I can find here! I will be supporting a lot of my friends blogs as well, and encourage for ya'll to follow them. I can't wait to start!

Much love,

Eeds

Ej DiMera of my own

A person quoted a corny phrase:

"Everything I have ever wanted came to me at the worst timing. Now it figures that I might not want them anymore"

Because I thought it was such a selfish thing to say, it happened to me. Two months ago, I seemed to be steady. Now, at this rate, I'm skinning myself. I knew what I wanted five years from now, since the beginning. And someone truly loves me, and it feels like I'm about to take a 180.

I decided not to. I'm following on with the original plan. Regardless of whom it is I find myself falling in love with, I don't see myself with somebody at such a young age. I want to be a working woman and be able to support my parents once they retire. I want to travel from country to country for business meetings, no strings attached. I want to have a house in North Carolina and a loft in central of Chicago.

I watched Ej DiMera on Days of Our Lives today, for the first time since 2003. I love him to death, as stupid as it sounds. But, as eye-rolling as it sounds, I want somebody like him. A complete gentleman. Someone who knows how to charm. So once my plan is proven to me, I will hopefully meet my own Ej DiMera.

CEGEP

For since March 2010, I have struggled with what to do. I have gone back and forth, positive and confident of my decision. But obviously if I kept changing my mind, it is more than clear that I cannot make up my mind and stick with it. That means that I have not truly found my goal. That I do not LOVE what I think I absolutely love. And for the past three weeks, I finally realized that the whole plan I had set in front of me for the next six years was nothing but egotism.

This is strange timing. But, simultaneously, I am glad that I still have time to truly find out what I like. I no longer care about whether I am advanced or pass late, but I do care if I make THE WRONG CHOICE.

So with the help of black coffee and and extreme morning jogs, I know I can take all the time in the world to decide what is best for ME.

P.S: I'll be honest, Holly Madison from Holly's World inspired me :S She does that to people I guess. Maybe it was because of that calamari...

Friday Night Bluuues

Did you watch the season finale of Friday Night Lights yesterday on nbc? it broke my heart just thinking that it was the end. I almost shed a tear (sheesh, it's just TV). But I was damn GLAD to see the reunion of the old cast (Landry, Sarecson, Julie Tyler). Yup, and some big surprises :) It was sad that Minka Kelly and Scott Porter could not show up in the finale, because they were a big part of the show after all.

In the end, Tyler and his wife moved to Philadelphia :)